Just something to think about . . . . . .

I feel guilty. I don't like to take from other people, unfortunately other people don't seem to mind. My Uncle takes things that don't belong to him. He took his brothers bikes and sold them without asking. I had a pan that I used to boil stuff with and now it has gone, just disappeared and I think he may have lent it to the neighbor, but it is not his stuff to lend or give away when he damn well pleases. I have to move; find another place to live. I just don't trust him.

Having a bad day. . . . . . . .

Woke up seems like nothing in my life is going right lately. I have been very tired today. Got a 78 in my Economics class and I think my teacher is playing favorites because someone got a high grade and they didn't even deserve it. Oh yeah, I am also worried about my advanced accounting test that is coming up; that one I am really afraid that I won't pass. It is a very hard class. My GPA is good enough for getting my B.A. in Accounting, but now I am worried that if I don't get a 3.0 GPA I won't be able to get a paid Accounting Internship and my life will be ruined if it is not ruined already. I mean I wake up and I don't know what I am living for sometimes, for Accounting. I also live with a relative in one room where I don't have much freedom to move around the rest of the apartment and my only saving grace is that I get my B.A. Degree so that I can get a job outside of New York. I feel like if I don't do this I will die. I don't have much to live for at the moment anyway. There is nothing for me in New York anymore. Today I was so tired and I kept making so many mistake with my Economic stuff in class. I am tired of living this life and sorry I ever moved effing back to New York. I am afraid of not making it through this year. That is the truth. I am afraid of not making it through.